Underneath all our body's symptoms, there is always a message for us. No, I'm not saying that we're responsible for our illnesses - that kind of thinking isn't compassionate, and it's certainly not helpful. But while we're stuck in something, with no other choice but to notice how awful we're feeling, it provides at least a distraction to think about what we might learn from it.
I recently made a significant move that involves not only a new culture but being away from family for the first time in my life and all the other stressors that typically go with a move. I haven't really experienced it all consciously as "stress," but my body is obviously showing me, through these allergies, that something's out of kilter. Allergies are about not feeling safe in the world: I am showing, therefore, through my physical symptoms, that I don't feel safe in the world.
Change often throws us off balance, and because we are distracted by all the newness and chaos around us, we forget to return to our regular place of comfort, to what connects us to the deeper part of life. When we are disconnected from that deeper part of us, from what gives us meaning in life, we feel unsafe. It is through taking care of ourselves, living from our passions, and following our heart, that we remain connected and know the world as a safe place.
It's easy, when there's a lot going on, to forget about taking care of ourselves. And eventually, if we ignore those signs, they will manifest physically - first in "smaller" things like allergies and ultimately, if we don't pay attention, in bigger ways. So actually, these darn allergies that have pretty much made my life miserable for days now, are a gift to me. They are showing me that I am not taking care of myself to the degree that I'm not feeling safe - I'm feeling allergic to life. Not a comfortable place to be. And certainly not a familiar one for me.
So today, my focus is going to be on me, on how I feel, and on what feedback my body is giving me. And if I need to stolp and do nothing, then I will stop and do nothing. Life's short, and it's not meant to be spent feeling miserable. It's ironic that my last blog was on commitment, when there I was, not even realizing I wasn't committing to the most important thing in my life - me.
We are often blind to our own wisdom. I am grateful for a body that shows me, sometimes blatantly, when this is so.
What is your body saying to you?